Just Can't Be Fake

The more that I come into my own the more I am self reflecting on what I want in life, and what is more important. I started this journey looking for others like myself. To help me in anyway possible to help me understand what was going on with me. Clearly it didn't help, because the more I looked for the answers within myself and through other avenues, the more I started to have faith in what I was getting and my confidence began to rose.

    I don't do facebook groups that much anymore due to the lack of support and I am just different. I find that more want to talk about light and love, and not realistic stand points which I live every single day. That people who you would think would be there to help, would just turn on you in a heart beat, and not give a crap what they said to you just so that they can make themselves feel better. I am over it.

   This is happening all over. People trying to up one another, and for me this just isn't for me.

   I can only be who I am. And if that isn't okay with you, then your free the leave or not even speak to me, which most don't anyway.

    You see when you have a reached a certain awareness about things, the things that may seem so important just aren't. I'm not looking to ascend like what many here are so focused on to do in this life time, because they are so tired of reincarnating. Hate to burst your bubble but I would bet that even if you do, more than likely you will want to live again.

   You see I live in a world far beyond anything that I thought that I would live in. I don't see this world as bad, as others do, which yes, it seems bad and I pick up a lot of the darkness, but this world has a magic about it that many don't see. Am I going to tell you? No, because you need to open your eyes and see it for yourselves. Look beyond the bad and see what it could turn into if you just have a little faith in the impossible.

  

   The world right now for me is something I have now coming to respect even more. The more I realize about the world, the more I discover about myself. I feel like in my own skin one who is judged because I am different. I sense darkness unlike most, only because I was created that way. I can sense the light to, which makes it an even balance in life. But most importantly I have learned that even though my voice isn't loud like Oprah Whinfrey's or Doreen Virtues, that I do have a voice, and who ever wants to hear it can, but I refuse to live in a bubble where only light and love lives with most people.

   You see people don't like talking about the dark because they can't face their own darkness. It is like being afraid to admit there own selves, because they want to put out this persona that I want people to see me this way and only this way, which people like me can sense the lie, which deep inside hurts us more. We just want people to learn to accept there dark and light. And again so many are so afraid to because if they do, it would make them look bad. I am here to tell you that you being your true self is the best thing you could give to your soul. It is an acceptance. If you don't like parts of yourself then fix it. No one is saying live like this for the rest of your life. All what you need to do is realize, then start the process  of change. That is if you want to do so.

   Life is never ending. It doesn't change, but I refuse to sit back and allow things in this world just continuously take over. We all get what we get with our gifts, and yes each and every single one of you has a divine gift that God gave you to use to help this world out.

   Whether it is mowing yards, being good with numbers, or just putting a smile on someone's face, that is your purpose. That is what you are meant to do, and no one can take that away from you. Don't let other's define who you are. You define who you are, and if they don't understand you, then that is okay, because they aren't meant to.

   Life is too short for this going back and forth on who is right and wrong in this world. I see it all over and in all communities. I am right, no I am right. It is like we are back in high school yet, and those who should be adults act like children. It is crazy. What is going on people? It upsets me to the point because I care too much to see people bullying others. I can't stand it. People please realize that with this grand universe anything is possible. 

   We need to start treating people with more respect then putting them down at every turn. That all of the answers aren't written down or spoken about. That the impossible can be the impossible. We all need to grow and learn, and that is the whole purpose of being reborn. Not to get rich or famous, or see how many people can I be friends with on social media, or how many selfies I can post in a day. If that what we have to come to as a society then God help us, because the brainwashing just continues, and we aren't paying enough attention to ourselves, but only to the near fact that everyone wants attention in there own way.

   I will write more about this stuff later on. I feel my own thoughts getting carried away, which at times they do, but I do hope that you see the big picture. Go and do what it is you do and don't worry about others opinions of you. You can do this.

   Have a blessed day.

  

There Is Always A Beginning: Lesson One

   We are set to believe that our spiritual awakenings, happen when something drastic changes in our lives, which opens us up to see truth, but I am here to tell you that isn't the case. The awakening begins way before the traumatic experience happens. It happens when you make a self conscious decision, which alters your path. It is like getting back on the road, because you took a detour for a while, and some within you decided to start making a life change.
   I was shown with mine, the first change happened when I decided to move out of my parents house at the age of eighteen. I didn't like the energy that was in the house. It felt hostile, and I always felt like I was walking on egg shells with certain people.
   Have you every walked into a room where the energy felt wrong, and all you wanted to do was run out the door? That was where I lived at. I didn't like it, and I though everyone could sense the change in dynamic, but I was wrong.
   Yes, when your eighteen and you want to do things on your own you make crazy decisions. All I wanted was change of some sort so I, in truth, seeked change from meeting people online. Back in the early 2000's this was what some people did, but many looked upon you as crazy and that you seriously needed mental help. Needless to say I didn't see it that way, because I was so tired of the people in my hometown, that I just wanted to meet knew people.
   Because of this it lead to friction in my household at the time, which in return I took it upon myself to move out and live with my grandma. I don't regret my decision, but this was the change that was needed. Something in other words had to give, and this was it.
  
   My next life change happened just a year and a half later, when in January of 2003 I had a vision of myself marrying a guy who I spoke to occasionally online with. He was in the military stationed at a military base in North Carolina, and because I followed the vision, no matter how crazy it was at the time. I believed in it because inside of my new the truth. The only thing I had to do was follow it.
   Because I  followed the vision, we met, dated for a little while, then six after we met we married. Now we have been married for twelve years. He has been my husband, soul partner for all of these years.

   More experiences followed after these two.

   What I am trying to teach here is that where as you've probably have heard that your journey started when you seek truth of what this world is, the fact is, that you start sooner than this. The question is can you recall back far enough, when you made a drastic decision that left you at peace reguardless of what anyone thought or said? Did you know deep down that this was your path or had a feeling it was the right decision for you? The journey can start out of pain or change.

   But know this the first change begins when you have decided to enter a world where you want to experience life to its fullest. When you decided to accept your journey, and to take a physical form. That is where it all begins.

   So take the time to reanyalize the changes, and next we will talk about listening. I will speak of what I was taught to do, and how you too can achieve to silence the mind, through meditation so that you can start to either hear or feel the guidance that is needed for you to on your own path.